Thank you for sharing this with us. My obligation was my mother, who had always expressed her worst fear as having a child take their own life, as she had watched the son of a friend do. When my depression was at it's worst, that is what saved me. I can only hope that you continue to find obligations that keep you with us and the strength to ask for help when you need it. Depression does not need to be deserved, it just is. And it can be helped. <3